Dirty deeds

If I knew
I wouldn't have
put myself into you
Nor shall i say into this whole thing.
I didn't know.

Prepared my mother's
burial with money
that I didn't know where
its coming from.
Burring my mother
with the dirty money
of dirty deeds, smelling seeds of weed.

You made me
By seducing me
to fall in love
Nor to make love with you,
but you knew the truth
that it wasn't love
Because you wanted favours in return
by killing your man.

You deposited the money
into my account
I didn't knew
I wish I knew.
I was fooled by your seduction as you were acting son into me.
I wish I knew.

Thoughts of myself
that I couldn't remove
as I thought the money
was the results of my prayers, as I prayed to God to burry my mom with dignity.
I wish i knew.

Rich people use money as their powers.
Its true what they say.
"Money is power"
But all I know money can't buy you happiness
sweetness.
I wish knew
Before I put myself into this suicidal.
I wish I knew.

By Bulelani Happyboy Mbanya